fighting agains a ghost

racing thoughts running thru your head, with no way to stop them. does that sound familiar 

most off the time they are telling you, why are you such a loser, why didn't you do this, or why

didn't you do that. you could have done this you could have done that ,constantly  firing true your head. leaving no space for positive thinking . and after covering your head with a pillow to at least try to slow the noise down. and then, the most horrible thought of them all come sipping thru the pillow 

and in to your ear . and it says maybe you should end it all, maybe you should  end it all here,

maybe the only way out is to kill yourself , maybe it is your only way out .your only way to escape 

from this cruel world that is hunting your brain down. does it sound familiar ???

well then we have something in common .

how do we fight this , is there  a way to fight it??

is it bipolar disorder , is it depression 

what the hell is  tormenting or poor souls.

 I've been fighting with it for years now and I 

managed to put my hand on the triggers. 

things like bad memories from the past,

thing like not accomplishing goals you've set

things like years going by and nothing is changing. sometimes it may be as little as a flat tire. but why, I ask my self when I manage to step out of it. 

maybe you have tried medication and the thing is most of the medication I have tried came with huge side effect. like the ones to keep you calm . and the ones to help you sleep 

they will make you like a zombie and you wouldn't even know it 

I learned it the hard way 

my bad for the long post, am writing it  from my head, and I would really like to hear  how you deal with this type of problem 

like I was saying, I still don't have a way to deal with this properly .but I came to conclusion that,

if you isolate your self from people it can get worst, like if you have children you should go around them. and help them with something, it will go away by its own if you are alone calling people does not help in my case. you should go around people and not just be there, you should engage in something like any type of project they are doing, get involved it will help believe me 

hey and try to put goals in your daily life, if you have nothing on your list the bad thought will find

there way too you.

when I started with this post I was in a horrible state of mind, but before I reached down here my mind 

started to clean, and am in a better state right now 

I hope that you take your time to leave me a comment, and maybe tell me  how you are dealing with yours